Hi Hexima,
I'm sorry to hear that you're having trouble right now. I know how hard life can be, especially when you feel that everyone's ganging up on you. Please know that I am available to talk to too, if you'd like to talk to me directly. I'm more than happy to offer whatever help I can.
Also, I want you to know that you aren't alone. SI is something I have a great deal of knowledge about, and I wanted to send you a link to another board that has been a good place for me... and may be for you too.
Bus Web Board
(*If you're not familiar with these boards, please read over the "rules" and "before you post" sections first-- they are very careful to not allow members or anyone to post anything trigger-like, so please make sure you note all the rules before posting so you don't offend anyone.)
It sounds like you are encountering some personal things that definitely need to be worked through, and I'm very glad to hear that you have someone professional assisting you through all of it. I hope you can get to a place where things look a little brighter and better- though, remember that it takes time, and taking the steps down that road as slowly as you need to, is totally fine.
Bright Blessings to you. And as I said, if you need to talk, I am here too. :28:
*M