So last Saturday evening I was doing my normal guided meditation to ground, centre, heal, and shield. The grounding part went fine with the exception of I got the image in my head of a villain's mask from a cartoon I used to watch as a child. I tried to push it from my mind and began to open my root Chakra when am of a sudden I felt extremely scared. I can only describe it as I felt like I was in a place that I didn't know how to get out. I came out of my meditive state and was freaked out.
That morning I will admit I had begun to do a guided meditation to find my spirit animal but I got interrupted by my mother and couldn't refind my focus to continue. Now I have considered this might be e a panic attack, but this has never happened to me before and when I did the same meditation today, albeit with my crystals, I was perfectly fine. Anyone got any idea what it could be? My thinking is its either a spiritual awakening of some kind or mate it was the super moon's energy which overwhelmed me. I know it wasn't a spirit which did it as I can sense when spirit is near me.
Thanks for any light anyone can shed.
Something strange happened to me last saturday
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Re: Something strange happened to me last saturday
I'm only posing questions. Treat it like a dream interpretation. What does the cartoon villain mask symbolize to you & can you relate it to something you are healing within you? Your meditative consciousness pulled it from your childhood memory to make a point. It uses pictures to speak.
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I would take it even a step closer to child hood. Should you be forgiving of self, others or others and it's important you find closure now about something that happened then?
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Hm you both have a good point. I will have to meditate upon this.
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I have felt trapped much like that once. Yes it was about childhood and forgiveness.
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Thank you all
So today i had another amazing experience while meditating but this time it was positive
So i was listening to some vibration raising music and omh i felt such positive energy i realised that for so long i had drawn on darker energies my power had literally come from a dark place. This would be why i could not sense the energy controlling my friend as i cloaked myself in the same darknessit feeds on. I've let my dark energies control me for too long. I was using the craft for the wrong reasons. To use a comparison to a TV show that used to be popular i was like willow from buffy i was abusing the magick using it purely for power. I feel like the experience i had was to do with forgiveness as previously I've never been able to forgive those who hurt me
So today i had another amazing experience while meditating but this time it was positive
So i was listening to some vibration raising music and omh i felt such positive energy i realised that for so long i had drawn on darker energies my power had literally come from a dark place. This would be why i could not sense the energy controlling my friend as i cloaked myself in the same darknessit feeds on. I've let my dark energies control me for too long. I was using the craft for the wrong reasons. To use a comparison to a TV show that used to be popular i was like willow from buffy i was abusing the magick using it purely for power. I feel like the experience i had was to do with forgiveness as previously I've never been able to forgive those who hurt me
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What an inspiring thing to share. Thank you!
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Please drop me a PM when your ready to talk. Sharing a traumatic experience gets it out and takes away its power to keep messing with you.
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Thank you planeswalker o will do
I also realised something that has made me realise when im ready i need to do some shadow work. I realised that alot of the things which pissed me off about my friend are not him.but me. Because alot of.the things he has done which piss me off I used to do and i guess when i was in that dark place it reminded me of how i used to be when i was a positive person. Unfortunately while he has seen brief glimpses of the real me he's 99% of the time only seen my dark side. However i accept that I've been unfair to him and i accept that i no longer need to draw on my energies from a dark place nor do i need to be better than everyone else. I guess I've realised just how alike me and him are even tho im still working through some stuff like how he was able to come to me in a dream before i knew about this entity using him. Im much more confident about saving him from it though. I even know the deities im gonna call on to help me with it. My patron goddess Isis and Ra
I also realised something that has made me realise when im ready i need to do some shadow work. I realised that alot of the things which pissed me off about my friend are not him.but me. Because alot of.the things he has done which piss me off I used to do and i guess when i was in that dark place it reminded me of how i used to be when i was a positive person. Unfortunately while he has seen brief glimpses of the real me he's 99% of the time only seen my dark side. However i accept that I've been unfair to him and i accept that i no longer need to draw on my energies from a dark place nor do i need to be better than everyone else. I guess I've realised just how alike me and him are even tho im still working through some stuff like how he was able to come to me in a dream before i knew about this entity using him. Im much more confident about saving him from it though. I even know the deities im gonna call on to help me with it. My patron goddess Isis and Ra