the thing is that since i'm on my mds & relatively well i CAN'T STAND the feeling that people would take advantage of me....& b/c for so long it felt as tho "they" were right & i wasn't this new part of me that's awake that says "BACK OFF" essentially...takes me by surprise & i often feel i need validation.
may i ramble & rant?
there are many symptoms of the not so good kind that a bipolar puts all their effort into.i know i've probably told you all more than you want to know but unfortunately that's something i do.
when i was in the grips of my alternating mania & despair,i sought help whereever i could...hypnotism...chakra work & of course i went to psychics.
this part started as far back as 9/11 when i began scouring the streets of my neighborhood for people i KNEW were dead.
i found one that was quite good but it was apparent after a while that she wanted me to pay her rent...give her kids my blockbuster card & drum up late fees on it....etc.
so i found another.
it's possible i'm a great patsy but she did this egg routine on me where black goop ends up in the egg....& i'm no IDIOT...i realize what some psychics do & are & they are in excess every block around here.
BUT...people do what they do to make a living & they deserve toearn their money.
besides...i was feeling better w/ all this spiRItual work& being manic as all get out...didn't mind paying for it.
i cannot imagine that i told her about an inheritance i got this year.i don't mention it & i knew better than to mention it to a pychic...but she did something huge for me & said i could pay her when i could...we were actually friends(i thought)
i paid her in drips & drabs & kept a record.she did not.she said she was leaving up to me.but one day while talking bout what i owed her she FINALLY quoted what i owed(i thought that was weird as she said she wasn't even keeping track.
fine.she worked.i owed.
but i was anxious to get this monkey off my back & to be aware of NEVER squandering money ever again.
so when i got my inheritance i withdrew the money as fast as i could & went out of my way to do it since this woman wouldn't accept the bank check i gave her.i told her she should open abank account but she says she needs the money"for her clients"
after i give her the money IN CASH while i was supposed to be at work....she tells me her birthday is coming up & maybe i could buy her a nice present.
okay...let me admit something...i am an AVON lady
so i figure she wants makeup & i say ok wadda ya want.well.....b/c of all the work i did for you...i want an ipod.
well,my jaw was hanging open still when i got back to work.
besides the cost of an ipod after the bundle i gave her...i work & have 3 kids & don't even have time to go out & buy my husband a proper birthday gift!
that's when i realize in my haste that i overpaid her.
i stressed about it for a while but then thought hey...i'll let her know & she'll be grateful & leave me be.
so she called.i told her i overpaid her by 2,000$ so she should go out & buy herself a nice birthday present.
oh...she said...i can't.all that money is accounted for w/ past payments.
bullshit...she hadn't even counted it.
i said take a couple of hundred off the top & shop.
i couldn't beleive it when she said...what about the ipod youre going to buy me?didn't you check it out?
i told her that i was the wrong person to ask as i still use a walkman w/ a tape in it.
i just wanted to get away from her.
i could swear i heard her drool when she asked what i was gonna do with the rest of my money & i said...it's spent already.my house is falling apart.YOU know that.besides YOURE the psychic.
sorry to go on for so long but it sucks when someone you actually thought was a friend does this.
. No offense is intended!