She got out while I was at school on the 19th. I have made flyers for her and sent a report to the human society.
The only spell I've found that could help is only for me, and its to stop worrying, but my dog is the one who needs help. She needs to find her way home, and if anyone has a spell, or just some spiritual advice to help me get my dog home, it would be greatly appreciated. I have been smoking weed pretty much non stop since Friday to deal with the pain, and now we're out and I feel so completely helpless. Please, someone, help me, and keep my dog, Button, in your hearts.
Button
she doesn't really like being dressed up but every now and then i would do it anyways.
snugglez
more snugglez
a comic about me and my dog that i made a long time ago.
a picture i made of her with charcoal not long after i got her
wearing a sweater i made for her
The other one is Macy, my brother's dog.
her tail is a blur because she is always happy to see me, bless her heart.
PS: I'm sorry if this thread is in the wrong forum, I didn't really know where to put it, if a mod needs to move it to a more relevant forum, that would be great.
Because of lack of money and supplies, I almost always am forced to improvise.
I used a very old picture of myself, taken when i was in 4th or 5th grade I believe. I used pink yarn instead of red ribbon, and lit a red candle. Holding the binded picture of my dog and I, I prayed for her to come home.
I just want to say that after performing a spell, I realized that my sacrifice to the God was gone from the last time. Its likely that our dog ate it, but I'd like to think that somehow he accepted it and took it from me. Also, I felt more powerful this time. I felt more hopeful, and a lot less sad as usual.
Thanks. That means a lot because at 2:00pm today I found out that she has been dead since not long after she got out on Friday.
So, when it came time to try to blame myself, i wondered if it was because i did the spell wrong.
When I told my Atheist brother, he told me it was retarded to think that way, so that made me not beleive in Wicca.
But now I know that there's no way that I could've made somethink like that happen as a punishment, because i didn't even do that spell until after she supposedly.
Until i was being punished in the past for a future mistake.
Okay now im just rambling on, sounding high as fudge.
But anyways, if you have a spell you would like to recommend just remind me what it first felt like to purify myself.
Because that was when i felt most connected to the Godess.
Anyways, my day has been stressful, and i am embarrassed to say that i am really stoned while i type this because i couldnt handle to start crying again. Anything but that pain. As soon as i realized that i was high i was happier than before.
yeah.
and i burried her myself
brother dug the hole
i remember saying something like im thakful for what we had in life and im sad that we couldn't experience more.
or whatever
then i buried her
wasn't emotionally strong enough at two points, i would just stop and not be able to dig up the dirt to put on her towel covered body.
putting the dirt on her head was the hardest
that was what made it permanent.
made it really real.
because i could pretend that i was just being silly or something in the back of my head,
but then i would never do that on her head
and thats what snapped me out of it
and into despair at those 2 points.
right now im really sad about it
but because of the high,
im not sad enough to cry
which is great
because i feel like shit when i cry
damn
i need to stop thinking about my beautiful dog.
imma post a couple of youtube links of her from when she was still alive.
i didn't play with her enough
she was frozen when they took her to us
at the hospital
and she was heavy
like a bunch of bricks
so my brother had to pick her up
and take her to the car myself
mom was getting jealous at how bryce knew how to make me feel better while mom kinda made it worse
she shouldnt be jealous
omg and the other night i was really depressed because mom cant accept that im wiccan and wont except me for who i am in any way because im able to not care what she practices, i encourage beleif because i know what its like to have no hope, whatever hope you have is always good.
when button was in the hole i heaved a couple of sad breathes and tears and reached down to kiss her one last time
and because of the angle i was at i didn't kiss her like normal
it was just like diagonal
and it felt wrong
and i will never get to kiss her right again
our other dog tried to dig her dead body up while we were sitting there crying
and i said that i could leave, when she did.
because animals are pure and i trust them all completely with my soul.
okay
well i think im done thinking so hard
time to go to sleep
or something i guess
just sit over there and be doed
i also guess
man
yeah
uhm
oh yes of course the videos:
woohooo
I am so sorry for your loss. I am not sure if it helps, but when I lost my first dog last year, I took his collar and made it into a necklace. Every time I get sad, I can reach up and remind myself of how amazing he was. Whenever I run and his collar jingles, I want to smile because it makes me think of all the times he and I raced around my property. I buried him myself as well. He was a Blue Standard Poodle, and he was huge, but I carried him to his grave and buried him. I love him, and I visit his grave often, I talk to him. Strangely enough, that helps. I am truly sorry about the loss of your friend, and hope you meet again within this life.
"There is nothing more melodic, than the purring of a cat."
i was so sorry to read of your loss, i had a very special dog for 13 years until he passed.
after he'd gone i used to hear him bark, and a few years later when i went to a reader she told me that i had a big dog around me who would wag his whole backend in excitment....that was my MR B, i believe when theres been such a strong bond of love they stay with you
Little Buttons was sooo adorable and sweet. I loved your videos. You have good editing skills and that "jump around" song was perfect. I also liked where you sped up the part where he's sniffing around in the snow... so cute!
Your last post made me burst into tears. Even now, I'm about to cry. It's just so sad. Pets are so loving and loyal. They give us everything they can. It only seems right they should live as long as we do so we'll never have to be separated from them. Buttons was obviously a really sweet and gorgeous dog. It's easy to understand why you feel so lost without him. I know it's been some months since you posted this, so I'm not sure if you'll see my reply. I'm here moving posts like yours into the new "In Memory Of" forum that I just created. So that's where this thread will be if you're looking for it.
I hope the pain has become less for you over the months since you shared this post. It's really quite possible that Buttons is still there with you in spirit. Not that that's the same, but it's sort of comforting to know they're still around.
I wish you the best, and thank you for sharing your sweet, sad post and your adorable videos.
That means a lot because at 2:00pm today I found out that she has been dead since not long after she got out on Friday.
