Rant/parents/mental health misinformation
Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2016 2:53 pm
I never told my mom that I'm pagan, or I practice witchcraft. She knows (and so does my father) that I don't believe in the Christian god. They're both still and denial and when I told my dad he legit started crying (it made me feel bad but it's really not something that I'm going to change).
Recently, my mom has caught on that I have been practicing witchcraft. I never told her directly, but there are jars, dried herbs, and candles all over my room. She probably has been looking through my internet history as well tbh (talk about intrusive).
Today she came into my room and asked me why I have so many jars in my room. I made some nonchalant excuse that they were for storing stuff in (which is true lmao). She obviously didn't buy it and she insisted that I put them in the recycling. I lost a bunch of dried peppermint leaves and two jars -_-
She then goes on to say, "I don't understand why you have to be into all this dark stuff. Witchcraft? Magic? I just want you to be happy."
The funny thing is--I was fine until she came in, intruded on my personal things, and took my stuff.
There are other things that she mentioned in that spiel as well -- mental illness and self harm. (I'm recovering currently -- 4 months clean!) She basically views my mental health as a "messed up hobby" and she doesn't understand why it's happening. She doesn't know much about it obviously--even though I've been to therapy and have been prescribed medication. In her view, my mental health, sexuality, and spirituality are all interrelated and are all a big, connected problem. (I forgot to mention that I'm also bisexual.)
I guess I just needed to rant but comments and feedback are welcome. I'm a bit drained and I don't really know what to do. I usually wait until my mom is done and don't say anything. I tried to talk to her and inform her multiple times but by now I've just decided to give up.
Recently, my mom has caught on that I have been practicing witchcraft. I never told her directly, but there are jars, dried herbs, and candles all over my room. She probably has been looking through my internet history as well tbh (talk about intrusive).
Today she came into my room and asked me why I have so many jars in my room. I made some nonchalant excuse that they were for storing stuff in (which is true lmao). She obviously didn't buy it and she insisted that I put them in the recycling. I lost a bunch of dried peppermint leaves and two jars -_-
She then goes on to say, "I don't understand why you have to be into all this dark stuff. Witchcraft? Magic? I just want you to be happy."
The funny thing is--I was fine until she came in, intruded on my personal things, and took my stuff.
There are other things that she mentioned in that spiel as well -- mental illness and self harm. (I'm recovering currently -- 4 months clean!) She basically views my mental health as a "messed up hobby" and she doesn't understand why it's happening. She doesn't know much about it obviously--even though I've been to therapy and have been prescribed medication. In her view, my mental health, sexuality, and spirituality are all interrelated and are all a big, connected problem. (I forgot to mention that I'm also bisexual.)
I guess I just needed to rant but comments and feedback are welcome. I'm a bit drained and I don't really know what to do. I usually wait until my mom is done and don't say anything. I tried to talk to her and inform her multiple times but by now I've just decided to give up.