Re: Ravenmoon's Personal Blog of Shadows
Posted: Thu Oct 15, 2020 4:53 am
The last time I posted on this blog was in 2018, almost exactly a month before Dolores passed away in the accident.
Dolores meant a lot to me. I knew she was special and had a special place in my life and in my spiritual journey, but I didn't realize just how special she was to me personally.
I never imagined a world without her, and for a long while it felt as though she was lingering like a guardian angel. Sometimes I still get that feeling. I've honoured her every Samhain since.
Dee connected with and touched a lot of people, and I don't think that she would remember me, but I will never forget her.
Her passing has encouraged me to reach out to my online friends more.
2019 was a busy year. I worked and was in school full time. While I was in school I did maintain a minimal regular practice and observed the sabbats, but most of my focus was on graduating. I graduated this April with honours.
But coronavirus has complicated moving forward. Aside from trying to find work, I've been focusing a lot on spirituality, and the Goddess.
I had started getting reaaaally deep into Irish mythology, to learn more about the Morrigan and all her sisters, and the pantheon as a whole. Not only was I reading the Tain, but I purchased a few extra books on the Morrigan.
But earlier this year another goddess made her presence known to me very loud and very clear.
And on top of that, when I tried to do a ritual with the Morrigan, it didn't go well. She did not like the ritual structure, and a messenger for another goddess swooped in and took over.
I do not wish to name the goddess yet, but her main lesson for me has been to not ever assume I know for certain who she is.
She is a shapeshifter, she is many goddesses and no goddesses. She wants me to read and learn about her and then completely forget everything I just studied.
In that sense it's been frustrating, but also beautiful as I reconnect with Spirit in a profound way beyond the boxes I created for the goddesses through all my years of research.
Dolores meant a lot to me. I knew she was special and had a special place in my life and in my spiritual journey, but I didn't realize just how special she was to me personally.
I never imagined a world without her, and for a long while it felt as though she was lingering like a guardian angel. Sometimes I still get that feeling. I've honoured her every Samhain since.
Dee connected with and touched a lot of people, and I don't think that she would remember me, but I will never forget her.
Her passing has encouraged me to reach out to my online friends more.
2019 was a busy year. I worked and was in school full time. While I was in school I did maintain a minimal regular practice and observed the sabbats, but most of my focus was on graduating. I graduated this April with honours.
But coronavirus has complicated moving forward. Aside from trying to find work, I've been focusing a lot on spirituality, and the Goddess.
I had started getting reaaaally deep into Irish mythology, to learn more about the Morrigan and all her sisters, and the pantheon as a whole. Not only was I reading the Tain, but I purchased a few extra books on the Morrigan.
But earlier this year another goddess made her presence known to me very loud and very clear.
And on top of that, when I tried to do a ritual with the Morrigan, it didn't go well. She did not like the ritual structure, and a messenger for another goddess swooped in and took over.
I do not wish to name the goddess yet, but her main lesson for me has been to not ever assume I know for certain who she is.
She is a shapeshifter, she is many goddesses and no goddesses. She wants me to read and learn about her and then completely forget everything I just studied.
In that sense it's been frustrating, but also beautiful as I reconnect with Spirit in a profound way beyond the boxes I created for the goddesses through all my years of research.